A Life that never was!!
What is a life? A life is something where you share yourself to the others around you and hope that they share the same with you. Being born is not equivalent to having a life by any means. You had no hand on the date, time, how, where or the condition in which you were born. You were simply the result of an amalgamation of a sperm and an egg which thrived in the given conditions of your mothers womb, failing which you were born handicapped or successfully doing which you were born healthy and fully fit to face the world. And inspite of popular notion your life doesnt begin here. Life is something that begins when you understand to comprehend things,realize your dreams and move forward to work on it. As a baby, you are bestowed upon with a perennial bond of love and care which has the word unconditional written all over it. You are filled with a sense of security and your life revolves around the care of your parents and guardians who try to do all in their capacity to provide you with a prequel to the most important stage of your “life”, life itself.
But then, life isnt always hunky dory for the most of us. It is then that you need a support to wade through the most difficult periods of your life and pass with flying colors. Some people call it love, some call it friendship. They both serve the same purpose, with the latter more difficult to come by regardless of popular notion. By now you must be pretty confused at what I am trying to say through this post. This isnt an autobiography, nor is there any insight into what my title supposed you to believe. Well its an amalgamation of many factors. Its just that I am going through a difficult and I find no one beside me to raise my spirits or put a silent word of encouragement in my ears. The saying “In prosperity, our friends know us; in adversity, we know our friends” is absolutely true. Though my idea may cater to a smaller range of people. It is not always when you realize that you have reached your destiny only to be catapulted back to where you started your journey. Sometimes when you see it in front of you, you feel you are the happiest person on this planet only to find a mirage that may settle your nerves for the time being, The sheer sight of the illusion is enough to keep you on your toes for a year or so. But as it moves away, and is out of sight, you suddenly realize the gross abyss that has formed inside you and is pulling you apart. You try to hang on to the essence of it, hoping against hope that you will scrape through,Crying for mercy, for help and wringing your heart to bleed out the last drop of passion that you had conserved for so long in hope that the mirage restores itself. But, we forget the fact that its still an illusion. An illusion, irrespective of the length of the act, remains an illusion and will do so. The best way forward would be to move ahead and start searching from scratch.
But is the search worth it? What if you encounter another mirage only to buckle down again to the sheer magnitude of the loss? What if the last one was actually your destiny but you pondered too much over it being an illusion and on having waited a while it would actually have come back. So what do we do? Do we move forward or shy away from the inconclusiveness ahead and move backward in hope that somewhere down the line the mirage shall present itself as a test which I have successfully cleared and pave a path open to reach my destiny? Or maybe destiny had portrayed itself in the form of an illusion and I did not have the courage to capture it? Anyways more than a post its just a rant. Sorry, if you couldnt relate or understand anything as this post is muddled as my mind is right now.
Take care.
